That beautiful view is the city I love. And I am ready to move on. I love Chicago like I love water in 90 degree weather. I truly do. The city of hard hope is at the epicenter of who I am and everything that I stand for. The fact is that what I’m after and how I envision myself getting it doesn’t exist here for me. I feel a bit disconnected from the artistry that I was once a part of and I’m here in transition. I am keeping myself busy while here but my financial plan of escape has yet to pick up like I mapped out.
I am currently producing a feature film, directed by Ytasha Womack. That has kept me active in regards to the language of cinema production. I am grateful for that. I desired to shoot a short film here in Chicago and I am still playing around with that plan in regards to my financial setback. Do I invest money in the project or invest everything in the exodus? I am leaning towards using every dollar I can accumulate into a migration plan. That leaves me with no new project as I change scenery but I am in desperate need of a transition. Yes, Chicago has its own artistic hub. Yes, people are shooting film here. I don’t believe the investment market is here because Chicago was never a large production center. The films I see being produced on an independent level are working on headache budgets. I consider them headache budgets because it becomes a headache to put something of substance together because the money is funny. And it’s a shame because there is so much talent here but Chicago appears to be a very local market. Local and loyal, which is beautiful, but I desire to work at a different capacity.
This is just a little air off of my chest. I have been getting some great comments about the feature film that I penned and am working on a few lab applications, especially the Sundance screenwriters’ Lab. This would be a great blessing and confidence boost as I am feeling like I exist on an isolated island. I chose this path of course, so there are no complaints. Just me constantly checking in with myself by way of absolute honesty.